20031115

today was kinda funny. nice stuff happened. bad stuff happened too.
being human, i obviously concentrate on the bad stuff right. which makes me feel terrible.
so now.. i shall remember the nice things. hai. i dun wanto feel terrible.
today was fun at first. met up wif cg n ahs cg for funorama.
ended up just giving out roles and. chatted..
was fun la. today spent whole day wif char.
yeah. and leaders conference was good.
and i noe this journey im gonna embark.. will be one where i'm gonna learn..
specifically whats my ministry. i think. and i hope.
heh. ok i feel better now.see. thinking of a journey with God helps.

but the sad stuff keep coming back to me.
i lost my wallet. nicee thing abt this. ppl comfort me.
sad thing is, my brother ain't comforting me.
crap. shouldn't have been so huh yesterday.
nvm. i dun wanna continue.
make me feel bad only.
why are humans so.. funny.
oh. ruixiang just signed online.
but i dun think i'll be talking to him. huh.
nvm. forget it.

so this is it

huh!
ok i knew it. i just knew it.
ahhh. now i dunno what to do also.
huh.
im sorry james.

so this is it

20031114

argh. jocelyn just made me feel veh bad la.
she just told me top 2 in sec 2 cohort going 3/2 next yr.. bla bla.
all the smart, band 1 ppl are in that class.
and i am only in band 2 and quite bottom of band 2.
what, i can't make it next year ah.
i'll be last in class right.
argh. whatever la.
i'll just work hard next year.
argh.. but i noe im lazy!!! ahhhhhh.
ok fine. just work hard next year. work.. hai.

so this is it

20031113

hahhaaaa!! i got chao riot frens..
hehh.
noe vot the mad 3 did!!
today der came my house.. n went to the fourth floor.
rang the bell.. den realised it was the wrong house!!
hahhaa. ok. den dey marched to the fifth floor shouting "banzai!!"
gasps. im kidding. hehh.
ok. so i was playing my piano.. dressed in my pajamas. thinking abt how interesting today was.
when the bell rang. and there were presents outside the house. oh, and a can of f&n grape. haha.
i was wondering who its from laa. den i realised in this foto frame was a picture of angie and this super tall china man.
my mama n angie agree he's shuai. i nearly puked.
haaaa.
nvm. den.. like tt!! huh!!
hahhaha. can't remember vot else.
ok. thank you everyone who went mad today!!!!
haahhahaaa. especially angela, chuanting, angie, jocelyn!! n God of cos.
oooooh. Pamela wore a sexy short skirt today..
tskkk. byebye

so this is it

20031112

I GOT IN 3/2!! haaa. im madd. byebye.
hehh. nicole: i got in same class as you.

so this is it

LLOOOKK!! hahaaa. look at what priest, coach chan n aretha gave me for my birthday.
on a crumpled piece of white ppr:
"Dearest Ah Choong aka Loser... haha... wishing u a happy loser and holy birthday!!!.. haha."
i bet tt was from priest. okk.. still got.

"Dearest Loser, Happy birthday! You're a big kid now haha i would write a bible verse if i could remember one. Remember ar the bimbo is over taking the loser club. so jia you! God bless and wif lurve, priest"
u noe wud. i can't read her handwriting. some words were guessed. haa.

"Hey!!!... Have a blessed birthday and i hope that u won't have to lie again!!!... haha.. well anyway... i hope you'll uphold the loser status!!!...haha.. may u continue 2 grow closer to God as ur one yr older!!!...haha.. from e bimbo aka coach chan"
this girl's mad n deprived. hahaha. nvm. shh

"Aloha! Big kid liao. 1 yr older! muz be guai, ok? Enjoy ur pressie! =P"
from alicia. hahaha. enjoy ur pressie. sigh, they're so perverted ok.. haha

gave me a -ahem- pressie. sighh.. hahaha. their fun la, this lot. hehh
u noe vot. my whole team but me n alicia n dunno who has friendster.
gee, does the whole world have friendsterr. ahhha.
anyway. streaming results out tmr!! =D excitedd.. haha. i dunno vot to do now.
i have two water bottles. hahahaa. but i think i'll use my original one. hee.
byebye!

so this is it

20031111

u noe wud!!
i want the soundtrax for "the classic"
ahhhh ploot. hehh. nvm. my mommah's gonna cook good food tmr.
yipee. hahaa.
ahaks. i want a beanbag too. but tts siao. so ex.. haa.
byebye.

so this is it

20031110

hello.. ahh!
you noe whatt. i wun let this pull me down!!!! huh!
i hear bof sides of the story, the parents and the daughter. and u noe wud. i dunno who to side.
well. i find more truth in the parents.. but. i dunno how to handle the daughter. haiyah.
who understands what im talking abt. i noe james will. huh! u better do understand.
hai.. i guess. all i can do now is to love them all. love.. haiyerh.
nvm. just love dem la. but how to solve the problem..
oh well. just leave it all to God.
and i think i have something wrong. so much problems yet im happy. diao. nvm.
heh. buhbyes!

so this is it

20031109

haahahaha.
today theres.. training!! ha. where shd we eat for lunch.
hmm. hahaha.
cheryl: i think i choose one for you already. muahaahaha. ur mad leh.
ooh, om saturday it was a pooh-filled day. ahaks!
nvm. on sunday it was a foodday.
today.. is today. huh. nvm. i dunno what talking me.

so this is it

haish. i realised something..
we all can't just keep syaing i want to change but not change.
i want to love, but don't.
i want to be a strong christian.. but am not training myself.
i want to. i want... i want.. I.. I. I.
so im gonna learn. learn how to remind myself every moment.
to love, that God is watching, and all the promises i made to God.
i've got aLOT of things to learn.. alot.
i still have a long way to go..
but i dun hafta worry, dun i? God is right beside me, leading me.
oh and i learnt something new.
i've got to be more daring, to dare to step out in faith.
and even though the road ahead of me i can't see.. it's when i'm blind, God is all-seeing.
when i'm 0%, he is 100%.

i've got lots to train.. lots to work on. to be more n more christ-like.
i dun wanna stumble, i dun wanna fall. i wanna be strong.
whats worse is if i think i am strong, den when i fall i wonder why.
so i'm training hard for God.
so i wun be left behind.
problems we may face, but its not the problems we focus on.. its the crown we get in the end.
i dun wanna miss out on the gifts God's gonna give me.
yesterday's altar call.. i told God, i'm gonna love. love. love.
now i've gotta live out tt promise. yeah..

oh well. yeah.

so this is it