20060408

Gather the stars if you wish it so.

Gather the songs and keep them.

Gather the faces of women.

Gather for keeping years and years.

And then . . .

Loosen your hands, let go and say goodby.

Let the stars and songs go.

Let the faces and years go.

Loosen your hands and say goodbye.

Carl Sandburg

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let go and say goodbye

the new united album is awesome
i'm all inspired.. and excited.
it's true isn't it!
dream BIG! believe BIG!
God is BIG!!!!!!!

all the praise goes out to you!!

i have drawn a conclusion..
though it hardly leaves me anywhere.
still.

it was good, it was right.

My God, I'll only ever give my all
Take take take it all!

and i just realised something
i didn't go for the olympiad thing.
argh. i don't like this.
i wasn't informed, i think im unwanted.
rightly so, maybe.

now im thinking..
perhaps joining acsailing was quite a mistake
gaah. why must my decisions be questioned?
esp these decisions which i didn't make alone.

i called, you answered
and you came to my rescue

i'll call.

so.. its time to set my life back on track
with focus and goals.
not nonsense like what it's been the past 3 mths.
without distractions.

yup, without distractions.

its kinda hard to believe
how it could all be so similar yet so different.
how it felt so real but is not.
how i wished it to be real, but i guess its not
how much it seemed, yet is nothing.
how much it mattered.

Loosen your hands, let go and say goodby.

Let the stars and songs go.

Let the faces and years go.

Loosen your hands and say goodbye.

let go and say goodbye.

so this is it

20060407

i'll see you
when the wind blows

will you take me to Jesus' feet?
-

what shall it be then?
where is it now?
why is it so?
when did it happen?
who is it now?
how did it come down.. to this?

what shall be done?
where is healing found?
why is there emptiness?
when will it end?
who will bring joy?
how long does it take from here.. to you?

do i dare to believe?

it's all wrong today

what next?
where is this?
why now?
when did this?
who will?
how can it be?

i wish i knew.

so this is it

20060403

and the songbirds keep singing like they
know the score

-

never thought it will come down to this
didn't imagine how much it'll mean
should've guessed
should've known
shouldn't be here, waiting.

how did this happen?

and the air is filled
no, not with content
but that of questions.
yet most of all,
with want.

so this is it

20060402

"Father, the bridge is so narrow. I'm not sure I can pass through."
"Why do you look at the bridge when you can look to Me?"

and i stand,
i stand in awe of you

-

now it has been dragging on for too long
gotta stop
again

what a week.
went for centerstage.
had loads of laughs
enjoyed myself. yay
and got lost in punggol after that..
hm haha.

and before it gets too complicated
confusing
wait

this weekend i realised tons of stuff
some good some bad
i feel so shaken and ?
my memory's been failing.
i wish it'd all stop.
but tts just silly.

so now there's only one thing left to do
surrender
rest

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find me here
speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
i find peace again

you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are everything

and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

you calm the storms
you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
would you take me deeper now

and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

'cause you're all i want
you are all i need
you are everything
everything

so this is it